Thoughts to write down

It's so close to Christmas now and honestly, I can't wait to have a rest. My mental health has been awful with work and I've been trying to hang out with friends as a distraction but no one's taken up the offer once, and so I've started drinking alone whilst dancing to 90s pop classics instead.

I do think the universe has me down as someone who needs to live life alone, as if to say "I need you to be able to handle this for what I've got in store for you." If there is a god, whoever they are is getting a huge punch to the gut when I finally meet them. 

But rather than be maudlin, I'm hiding in books, wine and a lot of trashy TV shows instead. I'm obsessed with Rivals, which is absolutely divine and I adore the scandals. I also love the Grand Prix skating final as that kid who can do a back flip on ice? Gave me chills.

If the last week of work doesn't do me in, I've a line up of dark romance books to read on Kindle, a huge box of Guylian being delivered on the 20th and fresh cheese to go with the French rose.

I'm of course going to be playing Dreamlight Valley as well, though I might switch over to Palia as I've been abandoning my little house, though I do hate shooting the deer for money! Poor Bambi.

Although I will be mega broke by January, I'm determined to have a fitness kick and am purchasing a mini treadmill because I have gotten slightly chunky this year and have a very slinky dress to get into for my 30th, and I'm determined to have a total glow up because I deserve it, even if very few will notice and appreciate it.

Have a lovely week loves, and enjoy Christmas ❤️