Part of my wellness plan is to take regular breaks and regulate when things get too much, or to prevent them getting too much, but simply moving to a quiet space for a few minutes seems daunting to me -after all, I'd be stuck with my own thoughts with nothing to distract me from them.
Being alive in this world breaks my heart, and so putting effort in to be happy and enjoy life is a true challenge, but is one I'm determined to win at (I am incredibly stubborn, and will live just out of spite if I have to.)
I do not think I can achieve true peace, my mind simply won't allow for it. With my sensitive hearing and light sensitivity, even a "quiet" spot isn't quiet at all and can cause a sensory overload, and I have to take a full bag of equipment just to handle five minutes outside.
Then there's the pain. When my pain is at its worst, just sitting with it is the most awful thing. Some days I want to rip my arms and legs off to escape the nagging pain that goes on in my joints. There's no way to rest or relax when I'm aware of this pain.
So what is the key to completing my wellness plan?
Well, it's not a 10 step yoga and kale plan for sure, because that's something I cannot commit to. What I do know is that I feel better when I focus on what I love, which is:
-comfort (my bed, blankets)
-reading or puzzles
-animals
-dreamlight valley
-cake
And so my "taking breaks" and following the wellness plan to slow down a little will look something like this:
-nap as soon as I get home from work
-be in bed before midnight
-cake break at 11am
-Read on lunch break
-Spend as much time with the work dog as possible
-invest in some handheld puzzles that I can take to work
-play dream light valley to destress
Most of the wellness plans that exist are made by neurotypicals, so to make them autistic friendly it takes turning it on its head and looking at things from an upside down perspective to make it work!
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